I want to write but I don't know what to say.
M's ok. I'm ok (I think) and the flower is ok ( I pray). I'm just kinda in a scared slump. This time last week I was so excited about our numbers but as the week has gone by I've found myself more and more scared. I still have hardly any symptoms and that makes me worry. I'm tired. My back has, just over the past couple of days, started hurting(Is that good or bad?). My boobs are just the tinyest bit sensitive.
And this time last cycle I had started to spot. I know I shouldn't compare last time to this time but it's all I've got. I find myself reading what happened each day last time. Maybe I shouldn't do that?
I don't mean to be a downer. I'm just really scared. This sucks.
I keep debating back and forth whether or not to call for a 3rd beta. I just don't know. Our ultrasound is 10 days away. That seems like FOREVER away.
I know I can't change anything if something has or is going to happen but this unknown is really getting me.
It's hot! 91 degrees today!
Our toilet is broken.
My heart is breaking for Merr & Sum. *hugs*
I could burst into tears at any minute.
I feel like I might puke!