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Friday, July 20, 2007

No words

There are no words to describe the loss that M and I have suffered. No words to describe how empty we feel. No words to describe how much we wanted this child. No words to describe the hurt and anger we feel or the guilt that I feel.

I have so much I want to say but I can't find the words.

I do want to say thank you. Thanks to all of you for the kind words and well wishes.

Maybe if Mother Nature would stop being so cruel and do what she has to do, we can begin to move on and try to heal. I've taken 2 doses of meds (8 pills) to speed up the process and nothings happened. I've only bled a tiny bit. I spoke with the doc today and he said to wait and see (I'm tired of waiting!) what the weekend brings and to come in Monday for them to check with an ultrasound. It's looking like I might have to have a D&C after all.

On a brighter note, if there can be one in a time like this. GOD has the most beautiful Flower in his garden now.

8 comments:

Holly said...

Allow yourself to heal. Sometime, maybe by email, I'll tell you our miscarriage story. Lois was advised against having a D&C and that was a huge mistake.

A miscarriage brings a lot of feelings and it was very hard on us individually and as a couple, so make sure you both are communicating well. Hang in there.

Sending lots of love and hugs!

Holly & Lois

Merr said...

Oh I am so sorry. My heart ached when I read about this. It is just not fair! That is so beautiful what you said about your Flower being in God's garden. Always in His garden and always in your hearts! Our thoughts are with you.

Melissa said...

Be there for each other and know that we are here for you if you need us.

SW said...

Just wanted to say thinking of you, wishing you healing now and hope in the days to come. We're here for you.

K J and the kids said...

I'm so glad to hear from you.
I've thought about you EVERY day since you posted your sad news.
I hope you are healing.

I had a D&C. I wanted it to be over. It WAS over and I wanted it to be done. I remember letting the anger help me get through the D&C. The sadness helped me move forward afterwards.

Know that we are thinking about you and M...and hoping for the best for you both.

E and M, jumpingoutoftrees said...

You are in our thoughts.

hotomiky said...

Sorry, I didn't get back sooner.

Your right - no words can describe how you feel. It had happened to us and we couldn't describe how we felt. - angry, sad, and so forth...

We wanted you to know - we are thinking of you and M. Take care and Hugs...

nailgirl said...

I am a late reader to this blog but wanted you to know how sorry I am for your loss. It happened to me and it is never easy. Hugs.