There are no words to describe the loss that M and I have suffered. No words to describe how empty we feel. No words to describe how much we wanted this child. No words to describe the hurt and anger we feel or the guilt that I feel.
I have so much I want to say but I can't find the words.
I do want to say thank you. Thanks to all of you for the kind words and well wishes.
Maybe if Mother Nature would stop being so cruel and do what she has to do, we can begin to move on and try to heal. I've taken 2 doses of meds (8 pills) to speed up the process and nothings happened. I've only bled a tiny bit. I spoke with the doc today and he said to wait and see (I'm tired of waiting!) what the weekend brings and to come in Monday for them to check with an ultrasound. It's looking like I might have to have a D&C after all.
On a brighter note, if there can be one in a time like this. GOD has the most beautiful Flower in his garden now.