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Tuesday, September 9, 2008

No such luck

We're negative again.

I kinda thought it would be easier to deal with as the negatives keep piling up but it's just the opposite. It sucks!

Again, I feel foolish, broken and completely down and out.

This was try #5 for us and I know many of you have tried MANY more times than that but I don't know how much more heartbreak we can take. We have one vial of swimmers left. They might be the last.

This is just too much for any one person to go thru and what makes it worse is that there are 2 going thru it! M has been my rock but it's hard on her too. Besides seeing the negative stick time after time, she has to deal with ME and that's a job in its self.

I'm done testing and have stopped the bullets. CD1 should be here any day.

We're going to speak with our doctor before using the last vial. Maybe he'll have some suggestions. Clomid maybe? I don't know.

Thank you all for your positive thoughts and prayers..

This sure is hard work.

31 comments:

Lizzie said...

Oh, Kim, I'm so sorry. It is just devastating. I hope you find a way to keep at it, because I know you guys will be wonderful parents, but I do understand how hard it gets you down.

Mimi said...

Kim I am soooo sorry for the both of you....wish you were closer so I could give you a hug (like that could help or something huh) I don't even kinw what to say.....love you guys

MB said...

don't stop hoping yet. I had given up and decided on "one last try." And that's when it worked! Try to keep your chin up...sending good vibes your way.

Michelle said...

I know nothing I say willl make a difference in how much this sux for the 2 of u - but please just know that yo are both in our hearts and prayers all the time.

xoxo
Michelle & Dawn

Liz1971 said...

((((kim and m))))

Melissa said...

((Hugs)) We're thinking of you both.

tiff said...

I'm so sorry Kim. Don't give up....I know you will have a baby in your arms soon. We're all here supporting you guys and sending our love. xo

K J and the kids said...

I'm sorry it's not happening for you right away. It will happen though. I hope soon.

Hope said...

Aww my heart is breaking for you both. I wish this was the cycle. I know some day soon you will get the baby ( babies ) you both want.

palestar said...

i will keep you in my prayers always - stay safe and well. many blessings...palestar

tbean said...

I'm so sorry Kim. This process has been very cruel to you and I'm sorry it has to continue on and on. Hugs.

indigirl said...

I'm sorry... :-( It'll happen. And it's so hard. But it'll happen.

Merr said...

Oh man I am so sorry. Believe me I know how you feel.

La said...

It just sucks. I am so sorry. I will pass the boots on, but for now thinking about you both.

tammy said...

Thinking of you both.
((((((kim & m))))))

Kelly W. said...

I'm sorry. :(
Love to you both!
Kel

M-A said...

I'm so sorry
:(

Sara said...

Sorry, ladies.

Jen, the Yankee said...

Oh Kim I'm so sorry : ( Really ... I wish there was something I could do. I know it's easy to get discouraged ... but don't give up! There is a baby out there waiting for you guys. Sending much positive thoughts your way, as always.

welcome2ourworld said...

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but don't you quit...

musicalprose said...

Talkig to your doctor is a good idea. I know you want this very badly an dI hope it will happen for you next time. I'm sorry it is so hard for you guys I wish it would just happen for you.

Kelly W. said...

xoxo
tonight
because I'm thinking about you both
hoping you're okay...

Ali said...

I'll tell you what you have told me... It will be our turn...big hug! and I have a boot in the mail for you :-)

Carrie said...

oh hon, i dont know what to say. we've had 4 BFNs in a row, and each one hurts just as much as the last. big hugs for you.

Anonymous said...

oh kim and m
so so sorry
it sucks
and it hurts
but when it happens
one way or another
these hurts will fade
i know in my heart
it is meant to be
i saw how u 2 were
with my daughter
we fell in love
with ur 2 huge hearts
and kind souls
we miss u terribly
love u
xoxo rosa

Dana said...

I don't comment often but I just wanted you to know that I am so sorry this happened again. It'll happen, don't give up!!! I'll be praying that the doctor has a plan of action to get this show on the road!!!

Thinking of you both,
Dana

Anonymous said...

sending you love

and a hug ,, can you feel it?


and butterflyy kisses

ManyMeez said...

I'm sorry this isn't happening for you guys. I hope the doctor has some things you can do that will help. Sending you support, love and a million hugs!

Sparroweye said...

They say you save the best for last.
Maybe this will be true for you beautiful Mommies to be. I truly believe that you will be Mom's. When, I don't know. But I have faith that it will happen.

katherine said...

I don't know if this helps but my b/f was talking to me last night about one of his patients in his clinic class. It was a couple who came in for fertility treatments before they went on to do what you guys are doing. He deals in acupuncture...I don't know, it might be something to check out.

http://www.pregnancy-info.net/infertility_acupuncture.html

Much love and thoughts to both of you guys.

Anonymous said...

Peg and I are sending you so much Love...our girls!

We have learned this has nothing to do with how great you are...mommies in the making....all of this is so common, just not talked about.

The stress at times is overwhelming for you both (and loved ones)

We celebrate strong together...we grieve just as strong...together

We love you both very very much!!

Denise and Peg xxoxooxoxoxo