This time off has really been a HUGE help. I think I might actually have my head together a little bit now. Being in KY with my mom and dad helped tremendously. I miss them so much on a daily basis and with all that's been going on this mom and dad "fix" was great.
We left last Tuesday around noon and returned last night around 7 pm or so. It's an 8 hour drive so I had a lot of thinking time. I did alot of thinking. About alot of stuff. Even thought about yall. :o) And we did alot of singing. Of Christmas songs! (Merr - I thought of you alot. :o) You hear ALOT of songs in 8 hours)
I have a feeling this is going to turn into a long rambling post so get comfy.
First off, my bra has been tissue free for a week now. Thank GOD! What a horrible time that was. Ugg.
Now onto better things. We saw a little snow on the way and while in KY. Not as much as I hoping for but it worked. M and I spent most of Tuesday (Christmas Eve) at Wal-mart getting groceries for mom and home in the kitchen. We made fudge, carrot cake and a lemon bundt cake. That evening we played a very addictive game with mom and dad. If you like games and haven't seen this one yet. It's called LCR. It's a dice game. Simple and fun!
Wednesday we all spent our fair share of time in the kitchen getting things ready for our Christmas dinner that evening. My brother and sis-in-law joined us around 5 pm for dinner and then presents. Dinner was YUMMO! Turkey, dressing, gravy, mashed potatoes, rolls, corn, broccoli casserole(yuck) and of course all the desserts. We exchanged gifts and Mom & Dad saved the best for last. Their gifts to me, my brother and non brother(who wasn't there..more on that later) was a new tv. A new BIG tv. Big as in our choice of 52 inch or 37 inch! WOOWHOOO! (Totally thought of you La & Ali) We ended up going the next day with Mom and picking out the 37 inch. NO where to fit a 52 inch. And we didn't realize until last night when we got home just how small our tv was. A 19 inch! And guess what? M & I had decided before we left for KY that our gift to each other this Christmas would be a new tv! Hhmmm....now what can we buy? :o) We spent the rest of the night at the kitchen table eating and playing the dice game with Mom, Dad, Bro and S-I-L. We had a great time!
Ok, back to my non brother. I know this may sound mean but he wasn't invited to this Christmas dinner. Mom's having another one closer to Christmas which will include him and my brother minus me and M. M & I have enough stress in our lives and just wasn't up to dealing with him. We kinda thought that maybe we would hear from him in some sort of way while we were there seeing how he lives just 10 minutes from my mom but nope. Not a peep. Worked for me.
M surprised me with this 3 angel necklace during the family gift exchange.
My bro surprised M and I with this 4 leaf clover the next night.
He called me in the kitchen and gave me this shiny gold box. I opened it and that's what was inside. He got choked up, which he NEVER does and said he picked it himself and if M and I decided to try again to take this with us. (He didn't know about the good luck bag) We both cried. He hugged me tight and said he loved me and that he just wants me to be happy and if M makes me happy then that's all that matters. You got to understand....my brother never shows any sort of emotion so for him to do all this was a really big deal. When we went back to join everyone else in the living room he asked me to show M and tell her. I showed her and asked him to tell her. He did and again there wasn't a dry eye. He even hugged M.
And just when I thought it was safe......Mom & Dad gave us this just before we left.
Hopefully you can click and it will be larger but if not it's 3 angel ornaments for our tree. Yes, of course, you know I cried AGAIN.
Like I said earlier, we are back to work and trying to get back in some sort of routine again. It's hard and it still sucks big time but we are trying. I have a follow up appointment tomorrow with Dr. K. I don't know what to expect but maybe just maybe she will have some answers for us.
I have a couple of medical issues(my snots and a weird lump) that need to be addressed and fixed before we even consider trying again but I think we may give it another shot!
M & I both thank you all again for your thoughts and kind words. It really does mean alot to us!