I wish I didn't have to answer it! Danged AF!! Looks like she'll be busting down the door any minute.
Yesterday, as if you couldn't tell from the short, not so happy post, was a really crappy day. Really crappy. I sat at work and cried. I bit peoples heads off. I was a royal b-otch all day and all I wanted to do was go home and cry. And that's just what I did at 3 o'clock. I walked out to my truck, in the pouring down rain and hauled my pathetic butt home. Where I sat on the couch for a good while and cried. Like a crazy person. Today I feel better.
I just KNEW this test was going to be positive. I would have bet ANYTHING on it! And when test after test showed NO, I lost it! I did feel like a fool. Like a loser. Like it was all my fault. I still kinda feel that way but I know there's nothing I can do about it but try again or give up. I'm not ready to give up yet! We want a baby!
So with that said...we're not giving up. We're just taking a mini break. We're going to sit this next one out.
We're going to have some fun. We're going camping this weekend. We're going to NYC in less than 3 weeks. I'm going to eat hot dogs and drink Frappuccinos and not feel bad about it. I'm going to work in my flower beds. I'm not going to stress. I'm going to lose some weight and feel good about my body again. I'm going to be happy and enjoy the baby free time with my beautiful wife. Heck, I might even do a cartwheel....IF I knew how! :o)
And when the time is right...if it's meant to happen...it'll happen.
Thanks for being here for us....over and over again!