Yesterday sucked a little bit. It was my 6 month check up at the dentist. Trips to the dentist normally suck but this one was a bit more suckier (Is suckier a word?) because I had to change my pregnancy status on the patient info sheet from yes to no. I knew I was going to have to and I had hoped that I could get it done and they would see the change before they asked but I that didn't happen. I plopped down in the chair and Ms Chipper Lady came in and started fumbling thru my papers. Before I could mark anything down or even tell her, she said something along the lines of "I see here you should be having a baby soon" or something like that. I swallowed hard and just said "Yes, I SHOULD HAVE been having a baby soon." She appologized profusely and went on to tell me she had miscarried 3 times. NOT what I really wanted to hear but anyhow.... I made the changes on my forms and noticed that the due date that I had listed was February 22. I had miscarried TWICE since I last saw them. I had lost 3 babies since I saw them last. Alot of crap had happened since I saw them last. So much crap in just 6 months.
I pray the next 6 months have LESS crap.
Remember last Friday when it rained it's a$$ off, I had half dozen panic attacks and my truck broke? Well look what I missed after the rain cleared.
A friend of mine took this pic Friday afternoon in the parking lot across from where I work (about 5 minutes from my house). Isn't it beautiful? I've since then heard other people talking about it. Apparently it was even more stunning in person. And I missed it! All because I was pi$$ed at the world. Little did I know this was waiting outside for me.
I guess it just goes to show that there's still some beauty out there even on the crappiest of days. Even when you can't see it. Even when you think EVERYTHING has gone or is going wrong.
Or atleast that's what I'm going to tell myself. ;o)
It's my new sign.
Oh, I had no cavities. :o)