I don't even know if I should write this or not. But I feel getting it out of my system might make me feel better. Well probably not. I really just wanna hear some reassurance from yall.
Ok, everyday since May 30, the day we had our IUI, I've been checking the tissue after using the restroom. For a few days I wanted to see a little something....I wanted to see implantation bleeding. Then I checked because I didn't want to see anything...didn't wanna see AF. Ok, so I still check. I guess I will for the next 8 months. Well, late yesterday evening I saw a little pink in my undies. Just a little but it was enough to be seen and totally freak me out. There was nothing on the tissue.
I was off yesterday and did a little around the house. Nothing major and didn't do any lifting or anything. I helped M mow yesterday evening but that was on the riding mower. I had a little cramping, if you could even call it cramping, off and on all day, but it wasn't anything I thought I should worry about. It wasn't bad at all but enough to tell that something was going on in there.
Am I over reacting?
Please tell me I'm ok.
Needless to say I didn't sleep much last night and I can barely keep myself together at work now as I type this. I've cried so much I feel like I'm going to throw up (or is that morning sickness?). My eyes are swollen and I can't get the bad thoughts outta my head.
We're leaving in 2 days for our vacation. I should be happy and excited but I'm so scared I can barely function.
* 0930 hrs---just went to the restroom and there was about an inch long brown mucus looking thing on the tissue. I don't mean to be gross. I just want to know what yall think. I'm really not liking this.