M and I are taking a mini break. We'll be skipping this next month and seeing the doc on October 8. We're hoping he will have something that'll work for us in his bag of baby making tricks.
Oh and by the way....my IT guy at work has blocked blogger and flickr! So I'm having some serious with drawls! I can still read everything but just can't comment or create a new post. I still have total access at home but I just never seem to have the time to get online. So even tho I'm not commenting and posting, please know that I'm still reading and crossing my fingers for everyone!
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Thursday, September 18, 2008
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
No such luck
We're negative again.
I kinda thought it would be easier to deal with as the negatives keep piling up but it's just the opposite. It sucks!
Again, I feel foolish, broken and completely down and out.
This was try #5 for us and I know many of you have tried MANY more times than that but I don't know how much more heartbreak we can take. We have one vial of swimmers left. They might be the last.
This is just too much for any one person to go thru and what makes it worse is that there are 2 going thru it! M has been my rock but it's hard on her too. Besides seeing the negative stick time after time, she has to deal with ME and that's a job in its self.
I'm done testing and have stopped the bullets. CD1 should be here any day.
We're going to speak with our doctor before using the last vial. Maybe he'll have some suggestions. Clomid maybe? I don't know.
Thank you all for your positive thoughts and prayers..
This sure is hard work.
I kinda thought it would be easier to deal with as the negatives keep piling up but it's just the opposite. It sucks!
Again, I feel foolish, broken and completely down and out.
This was try #5 for us and I know many of you have tried MANY more times than that but I don't know how much more heartbreak we can take. We have one vial of swimmers left. They might be the last.
This is just too much for any one person to go thru and what makes it worse is that there are 2 going thru it! M has been my rock but it's hard on her too. Besides seeing the negative stick time after time, she has to deal with ME and that's a job in its self.
I'm done testing and have stopped the bullets. CD1 should be here any day.
We're going to speak with our doctor before using the last vial. Maybe he'll have some suggestions. Clomid maybe? I don't know.
Thank you all for your positive thoughts and prayers..
This sure is hard work.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Friday, September 5, 2008
10 DPO
Without my notes, which are in the bathroom at home, here's what I can remember from the past few days....
7 DPO/I - (evening) - tired, hungry, "pinches", sick belly before bed (didn't throw up, just felt yucky), "tickles"
8DPO/I - tired, "pinches", few cramps, hungry, "tickles"
9 DPO/I - tired, not so many cramps, hungry, tingly boobs, more "tickles"
10 DPO/I - (morning) - tired, hungry, few cramps, "tickles"
Now let me fill ya in on a couple of things.
The night I had the sick belly just happened to be on the same day ( 7 DPO) as the first two positive times. I didn't notice this until I logged it into my notes and went back to check past symptoms.
Our last 2 negatives I didn't have the sick feeling at all.
Just saying....
And now for the "tickles". That's really the only way to describe it other than it feels like something is crawling on my abdomen. (I checked and there wasn't :o) ) I also had those the first 2 positive times but didn't know how to describe them. But it's defiantly the same feeling.
Again...just saying...
I was a fool the last 2 negative times by thinking it was positive...so why not go for it again this time?
So...on with my ramblings.
I had a hair appointment yesterday, which I almost cancelled because I was getting highlights and didn't want the fumes/chemicals ruining anything. I went. My hair is cute with blond highlights now but that's not the point. Heck, I don't really have a point, just a ramble.
So, in walks a lady carrying a teeny weeny little baby. How stinkin' cute was she? Wow! I want one! Then I over hear one of the ladies talking about her new triplet nephews. Triplets! Wow! She goes on to say how they are identical! Wow again! And then to say they used no fertility stuff. BIG wow! Then as if my head isn't already swimming enough with the first baby, all the fumes and the talk of triplets...when I finally concentrate on the magazine I've been flipping thru, I see an article about Kentucky. Of course I start reading it and it ends up talking a family with TRIPLETS!
A singleton with the first pregnancy.
Twins with the second.
Triplets with the third?
One can only hope! :o)
I think I need to turn up my hope meter.
I tested this morning.
BFN!
I know it's still early but no one in our shoes likes to see a single line.
I'll try again in the morning. 11 DPO has been good to us in the past.
7 DPO/I - (evening) - tired, hungry, "pinches", sick belly before bed (didn't throw up, just felt yucky), "tickles"
8DPO/I - tired, "pinches", few cramps, hungry, "tickles"
9 DPO/I - tired, not so many cramps, hungry, tingly boobs, more "tickles"
10 DPO/I - (morning) - tired, hungry, few cramps, "tickles"
Now let me fill ya in on a couple of things.
The night I had the sick belly just happened to be on the same day ( 7 DPO) as the first two positive times. I didn't notice this until I logged it into my notes and went back to check past symptoms.
Our last 2 negatives I didn't have the sick feeling at all.
Just saying....
And now for the "tickles". That's really the only way to describe it other than it feels like something is crawling on my abdomen. (I checked and there wasn't :o) ) I also had those the first 2 positive times but didn't know how to describe them. But it's defiantly the same feeling.
Again...just saying...
I was a fool the last 2 negative times by thinking it was positive...so why not go for it again this time?
So...on with my ramblings.
I had a hair appointment yesterday, which I almost cancelled because I was getting highlights and didn't want the fumes/chemicals ruining anything. I went. My hair is cute with blond highlights now but that's not the point. Heck, I don't really have a point, just a ramble.
So, in walks a lady carrying a teeny weeny little baby. How stinkin' cute was she? Wow! I want one! Then I over hear one of the ladies talking about her new triplet nephews. Triplets! Wow! She goes on to say how they are identical! Wow again! And then to say they used no fertility stuff. BIG wow! Then as if my head isn't already swimming enough with the first baby, all the fumes and the talk of triplets...when I finally concentrate on the magazine I've been flipping thru, I see an article about Kentucky. Of course I start reading it and it ends up talking a family with TRIPLETS!
A singleton with the first pregnancy.
Twins with the second.
Triplets with the third?
One can only hope! :o)
I think I need to turn up my hope meter.
I tested this morning.
BFN!
I know it's still early but no one in our shoes likes to see a single line.
I'll try again in the morning. 11 DPO has been good to us in the past.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
7 DPO
1 week down.
1 week to go.
Day of IUI - Some cramping, bloated
1 DPO/I - Little cramping, long CM with a red streak, pinching feeling in left abdomen area, 2 hour nap, bloated
2 DPO/I - Little cramping, sharp pain in lower back, dull back ache, headache, 2 hour nap
3 DPO/I - Few cramps, gassy, feel wet, "tingles" just below belly button, tired
4 DPO/I - Few cramps, bloated (felt big as a house), few sharp/stabbing pains in boobs, peeing a bit more, acne (Ugg!), weird dreams, tired
5 DPO/I - Few cramps, backache, peeing alot, "pinches" in ab area, weird dreams, tired
6 DPO/I - Backache, "tingly" boobs, more "pinches", tossed and turned all night, tired
7 DPO/I - Really "tingly" boobs, sharp back pain, more "pinches" and "twinges", tired
I'd love to believe that all these are symptoms but they are all listed as side effects of progesterone too.
I just don't know.
I guess we'll all know in another week.
Another long week.
1 week to go.
Day of IUI - Some cramping, bloated
1 DPO/I - Little cramping, long CM with a red streak, pinching feeling in left abdomen area, 2 hour nap, bloated
2 DPO/I - Little cramping, sharp pain in lower back, dull back ache, headache, 2 hour nap
3 DPO/I - Few cramps, gassy, feel wet, "tingles" just below belly button, tired
4 DPO/I - Few cramps, bloated (felt big as a house), few sharp/stabbing pains in boobs, peeing a bit more, acne (Ugg!), weird dreams, tired
5 DPO/I - Few cramps, backache, peeing alot, "pinches" in ab area, weird dreams, tired
6 DPO/I - Backache, "tingly" boobs, more "pinches", tossed and turned all night, tired
7 DPO/I - Really "tingly" boobs, sharp back pain, more "pinches" and "twinges", tired
I'd love to believe that all these are symptoms but they are all listed as side effects of progesterone too.
I just don't know.
I guess we'll all know in another week.
Another long week.
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