CONGRATS x 2!

If you haven't done so already...stop by Thinking Miracles and check out the newest BFP members!

Congrats ladies!! Grow, Honeydew, Grow!

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The ladies over at The Baby Bug are now mommies! Welcome to the world Baby Braden! CONGRATS!!

Knock Knock!

I wish I didn't have to answer it! Danged AF!! Looks like she'll be busting down the door any minute.

Yesterday, as if you couldn't tell from the short, not so happy post, was a really crappy day. Really crappy. I sat at work and cried. I bit peoples heads off. I was a royal b-otch all day and all I wanted to do was go home and cry. And that's just what I did at 3 o'clock. I walked out to my truck, in the pouring down rain and hauled my pathetic butt home. Where I sat on the couch for a good while and cried. Like a crazy person. Today I feel better.

I just KNEW this test was going to be positive. I would have bet ANYTHING on it! And when test after test showed NO, I lost it! I did feel like a fool. Like a loser. Like it was all my fault. I still kinda feel that way but I know there's nothing I can do about it but try again or give up. I'm not ready to give up yet! We want a baby!

So with that said...we're not giving up. We're just taking a mini break. We're going to sit this next one out.

We're going to have some fun. We're going camping this weekend. We're going to NYC in less than 3 weeks. I'm going to eat hot dogs and drink Frappuccinos and not feel bad about it. I'm going to work in my flower beds. I'm not going to stress. I'm going to lose some weight and feel good about my body again. I'm going to be happy and enjoy the baby free time with my beautiful wife. Heck, I might even do a cartwheel....IF I knew how! :o)

And when the time is right...if it's meant to happen...it'll happen.

Thanks for being here for us....over and over again!

It's official

I'm a fool.

One line Friday/11DPI. One line Saturday12DPI. -NO this morning/14DPI.

No baby AGAIN!

This sucks!

ALOT!

Feeling foolish

One single line this morning.

M says our donor is a dud.

I think it might be me.

Ugg!

I know! I know! It's still early. (Today is just 11DPO/I)

Hitting the road now for KY.

I'll update if there's anything news worthy.

Have a great weekend!

Lines vs YES or NO

I tested this morning. (At 3 am hoping 3 would be lucky). Today is 10 DPO/I.

I got a big fat NO!

I didn't see just a single line or that dreaded stark white test. I saw NO! Actually I say -NO! A negative sign and a no! Talk about a double whammy!

But I'm ok. I'm good. I have NOT lost hope. It's only 10 DPO/I. AF isn't even due til Tuesday. I never got a real positive test until 11 DPO/I anyways. And I SO think if I had a test that had lines there would have at least been a faint line there looking up at me!

I still think it'll be positive in a day or so.

Foolish thinking? I hope not.

I can't stand the thoughts of seeing -NO two days in a row, so we wont be testing until Saturday morning. (Unless I buy a test with lines!)

9 DPO/I

Guess what I did yesterday.

I stopped by the store on the way home from work and bought 2 tests!

Did I use them?

Nope!

Aren't you all so proud!? :o)

I have 2 new foolish symptoms. I don't wanna say real symptoms until we get our BFP on Saturday. The first one being a lower backache and the second being snots! I haven't had snots in months. I swear they are pregnancy related even tho everything around here is covered in yellow pollen.

7 DPO/I

IF this IT (and I can't help but think it is) then yesterday was certainly implantation day!

Wow did I have some serious cramps! The have to set down and try not to ball up in a ball kinda cramps. I got super dizzy at one point and felt like crap all evening. I just knew I was gonna toss my cookies. (I really had cookies too...LOL...I know...I'm a dork!) I woke up this morning starving! I've done that the past 2 mornings. I've also noticed that I'll eat, enough to fill me up and then it's not to much later and I'm starving. Interesting!

I'm still tired, hungry, crampy (but not as bad as yesterday) and peeing all the time.

You know what I want to do don't you? But it's TOO early isn't it? :o)

For fear of jinxing myself...

I wont say this out loud.

Instead, I'll type it.

I guess my mind could be playing tricks on me or it could just be wishful thinking or it could be the silver bullets talking BUT....

I swear I'm pregnant. I just have to be. (I'll feel like a fool if I'm not but for now I'm thinking positive!)

Today is 6DPO/I. I'm crampy. I have the same "pinches" and "feelings" I had the other 2 times. I'm tired! I'm hungry. I have to pee. ALOT. Even up during the night and that never happens.

I guess only time will tell.

Oh and I forgot to tell yall. Not only did I give up caffeine but I quit diet sodas all together. Yay me! I'm now a water and juicy juice girl!

Looking back

One year ago today we made a very important purchase. A lot sure has happened since then.

Today is 4DPO/I. I started the silver bullets 2 nights ago. Not alot to report other than some cramping and the "feeling" that this is going to be IT.

Oh please let this be IT.

Congrats Ladies!

We've got 2 BFPs in the house!! (well not OUR house (yet)...but you know).

BIG congrats to the ladies at The Chronicles of Conception and A Story of Two Moms.

Happy Birthday to Me!

I've waited my entire life to be 33 and today's the day! This is going to be a great year!!

I forgot to tell you all about my dreams Sunday night (the night before insemination). I had 2 dreams that I can remember. The first one was about me being pregnant and giving birth to a healthy, beautiful baby boy. In the second dream I was pregnant again and gave birth to beautiful, healthy twin girls. I remember they were so small and they slept together in a moses basket.

I like to think these were our flowers sending me some sort of message. :o)

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I know you guys think I'm a fruit loop for my obsession with numbers and such so let me explain the reasoning behind counting the lobby chairs yesterday. LOL Remember me saying that the nurse said they were very busy yesterday? Well, when we arrived, the lobby had about 6 people in it. The most we've ever seen is 2 or 3. We commented to the super nice lady at the front desk that it did indeed look as tho they were busy. She told us that we just missed the rush and that about 30 minutes prior to our arrival the lobby was almost to the standing room only point. So....I counted the seats to see just how many people had been there waiting and it just happened to be 33!

IUI #4

We did it. IUI #4 is complete.

We called the clinic this morning at 845 and was told a nurse would call back shortly with an appointment time. 45 minutes later and still no phone call, we decided to load in the truck and start heading their way. The clinic is a good 45 or so minutes away and we figured it wouldn't hurt to get a head start down there. We were about halfway there and still hadn't got a return phone call so I called them again to make sure they hadn't forgotten about us. The nurse explained to me that they were busy and the message had been passed on to call us. I told her we were already on the way. We were about 1 block away from the clinic and my phone finally rang. The nurse said she would have to page the Cryo dude and that she would call me back. I told her we'd be in the lobby in less than five. My phone rang again as we were walking down the side walk. The nurse she had reached the Cryo dude and we could be seen in 30 minutes. YAY! The nurse came out around 11 and about 20 minutes later the deed was done. There's nothing like making a baby with a room full of people. There was me, M, a nurse, an intern I think and the nurse practitioner. A room full of women with a syringe of swimmers. WOW! I assumed the position and we got started. Things went pretty smooth. She had to switch out catheters and said my uterus was tilted. She also said it looked like we had more swimmers in the vial than they normally see. I say, the more the merrier! They set the timer for 20 minutes and left us alone. I crossed my legs for luck and to hold the little guys in. M and I sweet talked them into doing a good job and that was that.

I'm not sure what the lucky number will be this time but I did count 33 chairs in the waiting room and you all know I'll be 33 tomorrow. LOL We'll see.

And of course.....here's a few pics. (I forgot to set the date on the camera...opps)








Bio Hazards and stirrups. Could it get anymore romantic? ;o)

Happy Birthday M!

Woowhoo!! We got our BFP OPK at 6 am on M's birthday! :o)

IUI sometime tomorrow. We're calling the doctors office in the morning at 830.

CD 12 (with a p.s.)

Yippeeee!

No smiley face this morning.

This is the last time I want to see a BFN!!

Bring on the positives!

Maybe tomorrow? That would be an excellent birthday gift to M. :o)

P.S. I just found a fortune cookie in the snack drawer at work. It says "YOUR PRESENT PLANS ARE GOING TO SUCCEED". :o)

CD 11

Well, it's been 2 days of PIAC and 2 days of negatives. I used a cheap/non CBE one yesterday and got a faint line. This morning (because I had those egg making and popping out feelings yesterday) I used a CBE stick and got a O. No smiley. I kinda figured I wouldn't but was afraid if I didn't use it that I would miss it. I know....I'm paranoid.

I usually get a +OPK between CD12 and CD14.

So now we cross our fingers and pray it holds off until Sunday. If we get a +OPK tomorrow then we're out for this month because our office isn't open at all on Sundays and we have decided not to do another same day IUI.

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I'm really not a Rosie stalker but look who's on her page today! (bottom right hand corner) :o)

CD 9

I can't seem to get my thoughts together enough to blog so here come some random bullets!

* It's April. My favorite month!
* I'm gonna start PIAC (Peeing In A Cup) tomorrow
* My beautiful wife turns 36 on Sunday
* I'll be 33 on Tuesday! I've waited my entire life to turn 33. :o)
* My mom was 33 when she had me. Her mom was 33 when she had her.
* We're going to our favorite Japanese restaurant Saturday night to celebrate
* We both just got 2 new pair of tennis shoes. (I love shoes)
* I took a walk in the pouring rain yesterday. (It started off sunny but about halfway thru the sky opened up)
* It's only 38 more days til our trip to NYC
* I'm feeling good about this cycle and we haven't even started yet
* I've got a "nightstand" meme/bloggy thing to do ( I haven't forgotten)
* We're ready for a smiley face!