That's what the doctor suggested this morning when I called to see if there was something they could give me/I could do to help dry me up. I was hoping for a pill or something but no. No pills just a snug bra and cabbage leaves. Now, I've heard it all! You know me, I googled the cabbage leaf stuff and it's a good thing I did. It says not to do that if you're allergic to cabbage(that makes sense) or sulfa. Well, I'm allergic to sulfa. BLAH! I guess I'll just have to deal with this on top of everything else. Blah again!
I took your advice and got a some more time off from work. I don't go back until December 10. I took off a week and we'll be in KY the following week. Maybe things will straighten out some by then and I'll be able to get myself together.
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We got our first Christmas card today. From our R.E. Blah! I guess I should drop them a little note huh?
When it rains, it pours.
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A string of lights on our tree went out last night and of course while at the store getting a replacement I got in the line behind the crying newborn. And you guessed it. Crying newborn = crying Kim.
I mentioned the rain right?
Geesh!
Welcome To Our Garden
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
What next?!
Ok, so I thought that the worst was over and maybe we could start to heal and move on a little bit. I know we'll have our moments and that it's gonna take a lot of time. I'm prepared for that. What I wasn't prepared for was last night.
And if 1 thing wasn't enough we had 2.
I was getting up off the couch and wham! A sharp pain in my abdomen almost brought me to my knees. I can deal with this. The doc said to expect some cramping and stuff. And lets not forget the sharp pain I have in my left lower back that also almost knocks me off my feet.
But what I can't deal with is that my big sore boobs are now big sore leaking boobs. Talk about NOT fair!! Taking our babies away wasn't enough but now I have to wake up with wet spots on my pjs and sit here at work with pieces of toilet paper in my bra?! How is that fair? Can someone answer that?
Needless to say, we had a sucky night last night and this morning work is the LAST place I want to be.
I feel worthless. I'm fat. I cry all the time. I can't keep a baby alive. I don't want to leave the house. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to be at work. I don't want to see pregnant women. I feel like a freak!
Why do these things happen? I just don't get it! It's just so not fair!
Yes, I'm angry but I have that right don't I?
I just wanna wake up!!
And if 1 thing wasn't enough we had 2.
I was getting up off the couch and wham! A sharp pain in my abdomen almost brought me to my knees. I can deal with this. The doc said to expect some cramping and stuff. And lets not forget the sharp pain I have in my left lower back that also almost knocks me off my feet.
But what I can't deal with is that my big sore boobs are now big sore leaking boobs. Talk about NOT fair!! Taking our babies away wasn't enough but now I have to wake up with wet spots on my pjs and sit here at work with pieces of toilet paper in my bra?! How is that fair? Can someone answer that?
Needless to say, we had a sucky night last night and this morning work is the LAST place I want to be.
I feel worthless. I'm fat. I cry all the time. I can't keep a baby alive. I don't want to leave the house. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to be at work. I don't want to see pregnant women. I feel like a freak!
Why do these things happen? I just don't get it! It's just so not fair!
Yes, I'm angry but I have that right don't I?
I just wanna wake up!!
Sunday, November 25, 2007
We found out at week 12 that our flowers died around week 10. Some time shortly after we saw their little heartbeats and them flipping and turning around. I carried dead babies for 2 weeks. A nightmare. A nightmare that I know I will never wake up from.
The doc said we were too far along to wait for mother nature so we scheduled a D&C. Besides the fact that they were going to be taking our babies from us, I had never had surgery before. Never been knocked out. So scary. We checked in at the hospital at 0730. They took us to this tiny little room. I got a real cloth gown this time...not paper. I got an IV, which I did NOT want. I had to talk myself out of ripping it out of my arm and running down the hall. I just wanted to go home. I didn't want to be there! They took some blood and about 4 hours later it was time. Time for them to knock me out and take our babies away. I had 2 options. 1 was for them to numb me from waist down and kinda knock me out and the 2nd was to be knocked out completely. Of course the second option would involve a breathing cube and catheter. They insured me that if I chose the 2nd that I would be completely out and not have a clue about the tubes and such. I chose to be knocked out. I kissed M goodbye and they wheeled me down the hall to the OR. Again, I just wanted to jump off that stretcher and run home. I didn't want to be there! I cried like you wouldn't believe. They moved me from the stretcher to the table and placed a mask over my nose. The doc said to breathe deeply 3 times. Just before the 3rd breath Doc K took my hand and said she would take care of me. The next thing I remember was waking up to some beeping noises and hearing the opening song from Young & the Restless. I made it. I was in the recovery room. I was SO tired. I had to force myself to keep my eyes open. The nurse offered me some ice, which was like a feast to me. I hadn't had anything to eat or drink since midnight the night before. I was awake in recovery for about 20 minutes before they wheeled me back to the tiny little room to meet with M again. What a relief to see my beautiful wife there waiting for me. I could have NEVER made it thru all this without her. We were released 30-45 minutes later. We were at the hospital for about 7 hours! I slept for a while at home. M's mom brought us food.
I've had hardly any bleeding or pain. Just a few cramps. I was given 2 prescriptions and told to come back in 2 weeks. I do however have some really weird bruises on the hips. Did they strap me down? I don't know but I'll definitely being asking the doc next week.
Thanksgiving was a REALLY bad day. We both tried to stay busy and keep our minds off the obvious. It was hard. We took all the stuff from the nursery to the garage and covered it up. Just too hard to look at. Later in the day we got our Christmas stuff down from the attic. That killed a little bit of time. We had turkey dinner alone on the couch that evening. Thursday night just plain sucked! Friday we stayed busy. Cleaned the gutters. Mowed the leaves. Went to the grocery. Ate hotdogs. Took the crib apart. Put the tree up and tried to enjoy it.
My mom has called everyday. Sometimes twice a day. Against my wishes, she told my brother & non brother. My brothers wife called on Thanksgiving. I didn't answer. Mom told me later that she was calling to say she had been in our shoes. She too had a baby die at 3 months. I still haven't called her back. Too hard. My non brother called twice. I was afraid my phone would burst into flames if I answered it! I didn't answer. He sent an email last night saying how sorry he was. Whatever. He must not have been too concerned about my well being because he finished up the email talking about how I've been ignoring him and his family! Does he have amnesia? He's obviously forgotten what he said to me on the phone the last time we spoke! My reply will hopefully be clear to him that I don't want to see or speak to him again.
M & I both return to work tomorrow. Not looking forward to that. I wish I could just stay in my house and never see or speak to anyone ever again! I know it doesn't work that way but it's going to be hard. It already is.
This all sucks beyond words. I know time heals all wounds...blah blah blah. But this wound is pretty damn deep.
Also beyond words is the thankfulness we have for all of you. Your kind words, thoughts and prayers have not gone unnoticed or unappreciated. As weird as it sounds, I feel like you are all part of my family. I love you all and thank you from the bottom of my heart for all you've said and done.
We wont be posting much any longer for we have nothing to talk about but we will be continuing to read and follow along with all of you. I may not comment but please know we are still reading and thinking of you all.
Good luck and blessings to you all.
The doc said we were too far along to wait for mother nature so we scheduled a D&C. Besides the fact that they were going to be taking our babies from us, I had never had surgery before. Never been knocked out. So scary. We checked in at the hospital at 0730. They took us to this tiny little room. I got a real cloth gown this time...not paper. I got an IV, which I did NOT want. I had to talk myself out of ripping it out of my arm and running down the hall. I just wanted to go home. I didn't want to be there! They took some blood and about 4 hours later it was time. Time for them to knock me out and take our babies away. I had 2 options. 1 was for them to numb me from waist down and kinda knock me out and the 2nd was to be knocked out completely. Of course the second option would involve a breathing cube and catheter. They insured me that if I chose the 2nd that I would be completely out and not have a clue about the tubes and such. I chose to be knocked out. I kissed M goodbye and they wheeled me down the hall to the OR. Again, I just wanted to jump off that stretcher and run home. I didn't want to be there! I cried like you wouldn't believe. They moved me from the stretcher to the table and placed a mask over my nose. The doc said to breathe deeply 3 times. Just before the 3rd breath Doc K took my hand and said she would take care of me. The next thing I remember was waking up to some beeping noises and hearing the opening song from Young & the Restless. I made it. I was in the recovery room. I was SO tired. I had to force myself to keep my eyes open. The nurse offered me some ice, which was like a feast to me. I hadn't had anything to eat or drink since midnight the night before. I was awake in recovery for about 20 minutes before they wheeled me back to the tiny little room to meet with M again. What a relief to see my beautiful wife there waiting for me. I could have NEVER made it thru all this without her. We were released 30-45 minutes later. We were at the hospital for about 7 hours! I slept for a while at home. M's mom brought us food.
I've had hardly any bleeding or pain. Just a few cramps. I was given 2 prescriptions and told to come back in 2 weeks. I do however have some really weird bruises on the hips. Did they strap me down? I don't know but I'll definitely being asking the doc next week.
Thanksgiving was a REALLY bad day. We both tried to stay busy and keep our minds off the obvious. It was hard. We took all the stuff from the nursery to the garage and covered it up. Just too hard to look at. Later in the day we got our Christmas stuff down from the attic. That killed a little bit of time. We had turkey dinner alone on the couch that evening. Thursday night just plain sucked! Friday we stayed busy. Cleaned the gutters. Mowed the leaves. Went to the grocery. Ate hotdogs. Took the crib apart. Put the tree up and tried to enjoy it.
My mom has called everyday. Sometimes twice a day. Against my wishes, she told my brother & non brother. My brothers wife called on Thanksgiving. I didn't answer. Mom told me later that she was calling to say she had been in our shoes. She too had a baby die at 3 months. I still haven't called her back. Too hard. My non brother called twice. I was afraid my phone would burst into flames if I answered it! I didn't answer. He sent an email last night saying how sorry he was. Whatever. He must not have been too concerned about my well being because he finished up the email talking about how I've been ignoring him and his family! Does he have amnesia? He's obviously forgotten what he said to me on the phone the last time we spoke! My reply will hopefully be clear to him that I don't want to see or speak to him again.
M & I both return to work tomorrow. Not looking forward to that. I wish I could just stay in my house and never see or speak to anyone ever again! I know it doesn't work that way but it's going to be hard. It already is.
This all sucks beyond words. I know time heals all wounds...blah blah blah. But this wound is pretty damn deep.
Also beyond words is the thankfulness we have for all of you. Your kind words, thoughts and prayers have not gone unnoticed or unappreciated. As weird as it sounds, I feel like you are all part of my family. I love you all and thank you from the bottom of my heart for all you've said and done.
We wont be posting much any longer for we have nothing to talk about but we will be continuing to read and follow along with all of you. I may not comment but please know we are still reading and thinking of you all.
Good luck and blessings to you all.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Thanks
Kim is home now and resting in the bed. All went well the Doc said. Now time must do its thing (with GODs help) for us to heal.
We appreciate all the prayers and well wishes! As Kim said, "we have nice blogger friends".
We appreciate all the prayers and well wishes! As Kim said, "we have nice blogger friends".
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Prayers Please....
Thank you all so much for your thoughts and prayers... As my wife "doesn't sleep" I am posting I guess for myself...
I am Sorry but I am FUCKING angry! Kim keeps apologizing to me for not being able to carry our babies to safety... It is not her fault..SHE MUST understand that.
I LOVE my WIFE, more than Life itself. This just FUCKING SUCKS!
She has never had surgery before in her life and she is TERRIFIED! She is afraid of being on a breathing tube (ET Tube). I being the dummy that I am didn't listen to the Doc. She said she could either be "loopy" or be "out". Does out mean intebated? I am a Firefighter/EMT I should know this...AM I stupid?
I just LOVE my WIFE! I hate that I can't stop the pain......
This Just FUCKING SUCKS.....(sorry for cussin' babes)
M (Not so strong COP, FIREFIGHTER, EMT, FIREMARSHAL)
I am Sorry but I am FUCKING angry! Kim keeps apologizing to me for not being able to carry our babies to safety... It is not her fault..SHE MUST understand that.
I LOVE my WIFE, more than Life itself. This just FUCKING SUCKS!
She has never had surgery before in her life and she is TERRIFIED! She is afraid of being on a breathing tube (ET Tube). I being the dummy that I am didn't listen to the Doc. She said she could either be "loopy" or be "out". Does out mean intebated? I am a Firefighter/EMT I should know this...AM I stupid?
I just LOVE my WIFE! I hate that I can't stop the pain......
This Just FUCKING SUCKS.....(sorry for cussin' babes)
M (Not so strong COP, FIREFIGHTER, EMT, FIREMARSHAL)
Sunday, November 18, 2007
12 weeks today!
And I've got a lot of rambling to do but first let me say.....
12 weeks = 3 months, 3 months = first trimester, First trimester = YIPPPEEEE!!!
We made it thru the first trimester! Holy cow! Now we just need to keep it up!
We decided this time around that we would wait until after the first trimester to announce to tell everyone about our flowers. So yall know what means! We can tell people now! We are however gonna wait until after our next doctor visit on Tuesday...just in case.
But never the less.....WE MADE IT THRU OUR FIRST TRIMESTER!!
Ok now time for some ramblings to catch yall up with whats been going on with us.
So, last Saturday M decided to go play flag football with some peeps from the FD. She was given instructions NOT to get hurt. So what did she do? She got hurt. A little. She was going for a flag and got her ring finger caught in the guys sweatshirt drawstring thingy. Her finger ended up bleeding, swollen and black and blue and the guy ended up with a whelp on his butt from the thingy snapping back. :o) The finger is better now.
I twisted my ankle and almost ate dirt last Wednesday. I stepped out the back door in my sock feet and as my left foot hit the porch it rolled. OUCH! I was able to catch myself with the porch railing and door. I didn't fall but did a quick squat instead. It swelled and bruised just a tiny bit. It's all better now.
So that brings us up to this weekend. Yesterday to be more specific. Flag football day. UGH! Again M was instructed NOT to get hurt. And again what does she do? Gets hurt. Big ouchy this time. After going for the ball she came down the wrong way on her foot and injured it. After a visit to the doc in a box yesterday and an x-ray later she was told nothing was broken or sprained but that she needed to stay off it until Friday, keep it elevated, iced and take ibuprofen. It hurts. It's swollen, bruised and she can't put any pressure on it. So she's hobbling around on crutches. And what makes it even worse? She had promised to go shopping with me yesterday! What a way to get outta fighting crowds and spending money we don't have! :o) Oh and she was supposed to be on call this week for the fire marshalls office! Her boss has banned the fire marshalls from football. HA!
I think that's all the ouchy news we have. (knock on wood)
Now back to baby stuff.
I finally think my fat bump is turning into a baby bump! I've never been skinny...always had a bump but I think the bump is changing. I used to be able at least feel my hip bones when I laid down....well they are gone now. And I have these marks/indentions where I think they used to be. LOL I haven't been able to fit into my jeans since 8weeks but now my "big girl" stretchy jeans are getting snug. We've been taking belly pics since week 8 and we haven't really noticed a difference but I don't think it will be long now until we do. Oh and did I mention I gained 3 pounds this past week?! 3 pounds in 1 week! UGH! I know I'm probably gonna be huge and I'm looking forward to finally showing but my word! I'm gonna be really ticked off if I'm getting fat for no reason! :o) I know! I know! I have 2 good reasons but I just can't help but have that little voice in my head laughing at me cuz I'm getting fat. LOL My mom's already laughing at me and she hasn't even seen me!
Question for yall. When you were pregnant did you have an abundance of snot? This is ridiculous. I've been stuffy, congested and snotty since our first pregnancy back in June. I thought maybe it was just allergies or something but I've had a few women tell me it might be related to pregnancy. You know, of course, I googled it and sure enough I found some stuff saying that it very well could be pregnancy related. I called my OB and she said I could take sudafed or actifed but those things make my heart race. She then referred me to my regular doc in hopes that maybe they could prescribe something. I went Friday and was given amoxicillin..just in case it is an infection and also a script for some allergy medicine that I can't think of right now. Starts with a Z. Anyhow the doc said these were safe to use but now I'm scared to take them. I googled the drugs and some sites say to try and hold off on stuff like that until after the first trimester. So we're gonna run these drugs by the OB on Tuesday and if she has good things to say then I'll start taking them. It's just that I've been SO careful up to now not to do or take anything that wasn't absolutely necessary. I need this snot to go away. I can't breathe. It's really bad. My lips are chapped cuz I have to constantly breathe thru my mouth. My nose looks like dried up Rudolph nose and I should buy stock in some tissue company. The mornings are really bad. I sneeze like a dozen times before I get out of the house for work and then all my co workers gotta put up with my honking and sniffling nose all day. Where's all this snot come from? The only time I'm not stuffy is when I sleep. Thankfully! But as soon as I get up and start moving around the snot gates open. Sorry...I know I've grossed some of yall out.
I know there was more stuff I wanted to tell yall but my mind is blank right now. I think I need to jot down little notes so I don't forget what I want to so say.
Oh, 1 more thing. Not injury or baby related. Yall remember my non-brother? The brother that said M and I were abominations to GOD and that we were gonna split hell wide open and that wont bring his children around when M and I are at my parents. Well because of him my parents are having 2 Christmas' this year. One for M & I and one for the brother and non-brother. Sad huh? His loss. M & I will be heading to Kentucky December 5 to spend a few days celebrating Christmas and our flowers with my folks. I'm really looking forward to it. I hope I'm showing by then. :o) If nothing else, I know I'll have a turkey and pumpkin pie bump when we get back.
Bah hum bug to the non-brother.
Happy early Thanksgiving! We'll be spending that across the street with M's family. The WHOLE family.
p.s. Thanks for the 11 comments on our last post. :o)
12 weeks = 3 months, 3 months = first trimester, First trimester = YIPPPEEEE!!!
We made it thru the first trimester! Holy cow! Now we just need to keep it up!
We decided this time around that we would wait until after the first trimester to announce to tell everyone about our flowers. So yall know what means! We can tell people now! We are however gonna wait until after our next doctor visit on Tuesday...just in case.
But never the less.....WE MADE IT THRU OUR FIRST TRIMESTER!!
Ok now time for some ramblings to catch yall up with whats been going on with us.
So, last Saturday M decided to go play flag football with some peeps from the FD. She was given instructions NOT to get hurt. So what did she do? She got hurt. A little. She was going for a flag and got her ring finger caught in the guys sweatshirt drawstring thingy. Her finger ended up bleeding, swollen and black and blue and the guy ended up with a whelp on his butt from the thingy snapping back. :o) The finger is better now.
I twisted my ankle and almost ate dirt last Wednesday. I stepped out the back door in my sock feet and as my left foot hit the porch it rolled. OUCH! I was able to catch myself with the porch railing and door. I didn't fall but did a quick squat instead. It swelled and bruised just a tiny bit. It's all better now.
So that brings us up to this weekend. Yesterday to be more specific. Flag football day. UGH! Again M was instructed NOT to get hurt. And again what does she do? Gets hurt. Big ouchy this time. After going for the ball she came down the wrong way on her foot and injured it. After a visit to the doc in a box yesterday and an x-ray later she was told nothing was broken or sprained but that she needed to stay off it until Friday, keep it elevated, iced and take ibuprofen. It hurts. It's swollen, bruised and she can't put any pressure on it. So she's hobbling around on crutches. And what makes it even worse? She had promised to go shopping with me yesterday! What a way to get outta fighting crowds and spending money we don't have! :o) Oh and she was supposed to be on call this week for the fire marshalls office! Her boss has banned the fire marshalls from football. HA!
I think that's all the ouchy news we have. (knock on wood)
Now back to baby stuff.
I finally think my fat bump is turning into a baby bump! I've never been skinny...always had a bump but I think the bump is changing. I used to be able at least feel my hip bones when I laid down....well they are gone now. And I have these marks/indentions where I think they used to be. LOL I haven't been able to fit into my jeans since 8weeks but now my "big girl" stretchy jeans are getting snug. We've been taking belly pics since week 8 and we haven't really noticed a difference but I don't think it will be long now until we do. Oh and did I mention I gained 3 pounds this past week?! 3 pounds in 1 week! UGH! I know I'm probably gonna be huge and I'm looking forward to finally showing but my word! I'm gonna be really ticked off if I'm getting fat for no reason! :o) I know! I know! I have 2 good reasons but I just can't help but have that little voice in my head laughing at me cuz I'm getting fat. LOL My mom's already laughing at me and she hasn't even seen me!
Question for yall. When you were pregnant did you have an abundance of snot? This is ridiculous. I've been stuffy, congested and snotty since our first pregnancy back in June. I thought maybe it was just allergies or something but I've had a few women tell me it might be related to pregnancy. You know, of course, I googled it and sure enough I found some stuff saying that it very well could be pregnancy related. I called my OB and she said I could take sudafed or actifed but those things make my heart race. She then referred me to my regular doc in hopes that maybe they could prescribe something. I went Friday and was given amoxicillin..just in case it is an infection and also a script for some allergy medicine that I can't think of right now. Starts with a Z. Anyhow the doc said these were safe to use but now I'm scared to take them. I googled the drugs and some sites say to try and hold off on stuff like that until after the first trimester. So we're gonna run these drugs by the OB on Tuesday and if she has good things to say then I'll start taking them. It's just that I've been SO careful up to now not to do or take anything that wasn't absolutely necessary. I need this snot to go away. I can't breathe. It's really bad. My lips are chapped cuz I have to constantly breathe thru my mouth. My nose looks like dried up Rudolph nose and I should buy stock in some tissue company. The mornings are really bad. I sneeze like a dozen times before I get out of the house for work and then all my co workers gotta put up with my honking and sniffling nose all day. Where's all this snot come from? The only time I'm not stuffy is when I sleep. Thankfully! But as soon as I get up and start moving around the snot gates open. Sorry...I know I've grossed some of yall out.
I know there was more stuff I wanted to tell yall but my mind is blank right now. I think I need to jot down little notes so I don't forget what I want to so say.
Oh, 1 more thing. Not injury or baby related. Yall remember my non-brother? The brother that said M and I were abominations to GOD and that we were gonna split hell wide open and that wont bring his children around when M and I are at my parents. Well because of him my parents are having 2 Christmas' this year. One for M & I and one for the brother and non-brother. Sad huh? His loss. M & I will be heading to Kentucky December 5 to spend a few days celebrating Christmas and our flowers with my folks. I'm really looking forward to it. I hope I'm showing by then. :o) If nothing else, I know I'll have a turkey and pumpkin pie bump when we get back.
Bah hum bug to the non-brother.
Happy early Thanksgiving! We'll be spending that across the street with M's family. The WHOLE family.
p.s. Thanks for the 11 comments on our last post. :o)
Sunday, November 11, 2007
11 weeks on 11-11
I love 11s!
I've never been 11 weeks pregnant before! This is great!
We really don't have too much to report right now. We're just waiting for our next ultrasound visit on November 20. As usual, we are both excited and nervous. This baby making and growing process is stressful!
I'm doing my best to stay away from Dr. Google. I will say the threat of twin twin transfusion syndrome (TTTS) is really scary and quite possible for us but I'm doing my darnest to not stress and freak out until I have a reason to. Thanks to several different bloggers we were put in contact with the #1 TTTS doctor. We emailed him and he called us back the next day. We talked for a while and he was able to put our minds at rest. He told us what to tell and ask our OB and that he would keep in touch.
So now all we can do is hope and pray.
Other than all that jazz, we are doing good. I'm feeling much better. My all day sickness has passed. I'm still tired, hungry and peeing every little bit and driving M crazy with my "drop of a hat crying". She's putting up with me beautifully. :o)
Hope and pray.
I've never been 11 weeks pregnant before! This is great!
We really don't have too much to report right now. We're just waiting for our next ultrasound visit on November 20. As usual, we are both excited and nervous. This baby making and growing process is stressful!
I'm doing my best to stay away from Dr. Google. I will say the threat of twin twin transfusion syndrome (TTTS) is really scary and quite possible for us but I'm doing my darnest to not stress and freak out until I have a reason to. Thanks to several different bloggers we were put in contact with the #1 TTTS doctor. We emailed him and he called us back the next day. We talked for a while and he was able to put our minds at rest. He told us what to tell and ask our OB and that he would keep in touch.
So now all we can do is hope and pray.
Other than all that jazz, we are doing good. I'm feeling much better. My all day sickness has passed. I'm still tired, hungry and peeing every little bit and driving M crazy with my "drop of a hat crying". She's putting up with me beautifully. :o)
Hope and pray.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
For your viewing pleasure
It's multiples week on TLC's Bringing Home Baby. Oh my word! Just watching is stressing me out!
And speaking of multiples.....Check out the news Aspiring Baker just received. Congrats! Congrats!
And speaking of multiples.....Check out the news Aspiring Baker just received. Congrats! Congrats!
Monday, November 5, 2007
173 & 178 *Updated w/pics*
You know what those numbers are?
Those were our flowers heart rates today!!
I'm so excited right now I can hardly think of the words to say. So let me get to the point....we saw 2 heartbeats and HEARD 2 heart beats and we saw 2 active little flowers with arms and legs moving around.
Our babies are alive!
THANK YOU GOD!
Today is 10w1d. Flower A is measured 10w0d and Flower B is a little behind measuring at 9w3d. We were reassured that so far that is ok. That 1 twin can be a little behind the other and neither have gained or lost since our first ultrasound. They are still 4 days apart. So far, so good with that.
Of course we couldn't just go in and come out with no drama but I'm trying not to be upset on this next part unless I have too. The doc confirmed 2 babies and 2 yolk sacks. However they are sharing a sack and placenta. We have a lot of reading to do but she mentioned something about twin twin transfusion. Basically this is where 1 twin could possibly "hog" the goods coming to them thus causing a much smaller twin or loss. But like I said, I can't dwell on that possibility right now.
WE SAW AND HEARD 2 HEALTHY HEAR BEATS AND ARMS WAVING AND LEGS KICKING!
We're happy with that!
I had to return to work so it'll be a little while before I get the pics up.
Those were our flowers heart rates today!!
I'm so excited right now I can hardly think of the words to say. So let me get to the point....we saw 2 heartbeats and HEARD 2 heart beats and we saw 2 active little flowers with arms and legs moving around.
Our babies are alive!
THANK YOU GOD!
Today is 10w1d. Flower A is measured 10w0d and Flower B is a little behind measuring at 9w3d. We were reassured that so far that is ok. That 1 twin can be a little behind the other and neither have gained or lost since our first ultrasound. They are still 4 days apart. So far, so good with that.
Of course we couldn't just go in and come out with no drama but I'm trying not to be upset on this next part unless I have too. The doc confirmed 2 babies and 2 yolk sacks. However they are sharing a sack and placenta. We have a lot of reading to do but she mentioned something about twin twin transfusion. Basically this is where 1 twin could possibly "hog" the goods coming to them thus causing a much smaller twin or loss. But like I said, I can't dwell on that possibility right now.
WE SAW AND HEARD 2 HEALTHY HEAR BEATS AND ARMS WAVING AND LEGS KICKING!
We're happy with that!
I had to return to work so it'll be a little while before I get the pics up.
Here's Flower A (my favorite shot. Love the little arms and legs)
Another shot of Flower A
And here's Flower B
And another of Flower B
*Note to self---Don't EVER Google anything you don't want to know negative things about! If anyone reading this has ever had any dealings with twin twin transfusion please email me.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
I think we got tricked!
Our first OB appt didn't go quite as we had planned yesterday.
We didn't get an ultrasound!
Needless to say I just about lost it! I'll spare you all the drama and just say "that's what I get for assuming". But wouldn't yall think that your first OB visit would include an ultrasound to see if in fact there really was something in there? I mean come on now people! Yes, I'm still a tad bit upset if you couldn't tell.
So our photo shoot has been postponed until Monday at noon. BUT we MIGHT get one today or tomorrow if all goes well. I called our old doc, the RE and told them the deal. I should get a call back from them today with the (hopefully good) news.
To me the appt was a waste. Of course I know it wasn't but they didn't tell me anything I didn't already now. Heck they didn't even tell me anything! We told them everything. I'm trying not to be bitter.....it's hard. I was SO looking forward to seeing 2 LIVING flowers in there and now I have to continue to wait.
All they did was tell us we will continue to use the progesterone aka silver bullets until week 12 or 13 and to take extra folic acid. She did a breast exam and pap and took 3 vials of blood and said everything "felt" fine. Well there's a HUGE difference in her "feeling" and my "seeing".
We SO miss Dr. O and Nurse Wendy! But I'm sure our new doc, Dr. K, will be just fine. We just kinda had a rough first meeting.
We didn't get an ultrasound!
Needless to say I just about lost it! I'll spare you all the drama and just say "that's what I get for assuming". But wouldn't yall think that your first OB visit would include an ultrasound to see if in fact there really was something in there? I mean come on now people! Yes, I'm still a tad bit upset if you couldn't tell.
So our photo shoot has been postponed until Monday at noon. BUT we MIGHT get one today or tomorrow if all goes well. I called our old doc, the RE and told them the deal. I should get a call back from them today with the (hopefully good) news.
To me the appt was a waste. Of course I know it wasn't but they didn't tell me anything I didn't already now. Heck they didn't even tell me anything! We told them everything. I'm trying not to be bitter.....it's hard. I was SO looking forward to seeing 2 LIVING flowers in there and now I have to continue to wait.
All they did was tell us we will continue to use the progesterone aka silver bullets until week 12 or 13 and to take extra folic acid. She did a breast exam and pap and took 3 vials of blood and said everything "felt" fine. Well there's a HUGE difference in her "feeling" and my "seeing".
We SO miss Dr. O and Nurse Wendy! But I'm sure our new doc, Dr. K, will be just fine. We just kinda had a rough first meeting.
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