Trick or Treat

We're hoping for a treat today!

Today is photoshoot #2! Smile pretty lil flowers!

We are super excited. M's a little nervous and of course, I'm super nervous. I can't help but be tho. Our 2nd ultrasound last time didn't turn out so well. We SO wanna see 2 healthy growing flowers in there today.

I've got a room on standby at the local mental hospital just incase! M's mom works there...we've got connections!

Keep us in your thoughts today. We'll post as soon as we can. The appt is 2pm.

Happy Halloween!!

Growing pains?

The last several days have been up and down.

In a previous post I said how I had been feeling like crap. Well, I take that all back. I didn't know what crap felt like until Thursday. While at work, it hit me all at once. I suddenly got weak, shaky, my heart was racing and felt like I wanted to pass out, puke and well how should I put this...go #2 all at the same time. NOT a good feeling. I thought maybe I was weak because I hadn't eaten but I had. I thought maybe I was going to puke/#2 due to eating something that didn't like me but that wasn't the case. Morning sickness? I don't know but whew! It felt awful! I was better a couple hours later. It's happened a couple times since then.

Thursdays crappy feeling was also accompanied by some new feelings in the flower pot area. This of course led me to freak out AGAIN. I know. I know. Some of you are saying this is natural. That I'm supposed to feel some growing and stretching. But hey! I've never been this pregnant! I have NO clue what I'm supposed to be feeling. Needless to say I cried alot Thursday evening and then reminded myself even IF something were wrong I couldn't change it. BUT nothings wrong or will be wrong!

I just decided it was growing pains.
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These flowers of ours sure like fries and chicken nuggets. It's them. Not me. Honest.
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Don't you just love friends? Especially friends with small children who are ready to get rid of some baby stuff? A co-worker of mine blessed us yesterday with a crib(that makes 2 from friends), a car seat with 2 bases, a walker, a jumpy thing, a pack & play and 2 bags of stuff including little boys clothes that are just too cute! This same friend also has a sister in law who is having a girl in December and she's gonna pass her stuff onto us too. I wonder which clothes we'll get to use? The pink ones or the blue ones?

YAY for friends!
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2 more days 'til our first OB appointment!
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Please let it be growing pains!

We've been released

Doctor O has released us to see our own OB-GYN. BIG step! Woowhooo!

We have 2 OB groups in town. One of which is run by "family". I made the call to the "family" doc yesterday morning with crossed fingers. I was just sure they would say they weren't accepting any new patients or that they didn't accept my insurance but I was wrong. We have our first official OB appointment next Wednesday at 1:15. On Halloween! Yippee!

I'm feeling ok. Well, actually I feel pretty crappy but I guess that's good. I haven't puked but I feel like I could at any minute all day long. I'm really tired and hungry all the time. The last couple of days I've been feeling some stretching and pulling down in the flower pot area and my lower back hurts a bit. I'm having a hard time sleeping. I think that's mostly because I'm up every 2 cotton pickin' hours to go pee! My 2 favorite pair of jeans are now IMPOSSIBLE to get into. I've already boxed them up and put them away. I've bought 2 new pair of khakis for work and 2 new jeans already. Holy moly! I think I'm gonna be HUGE fast. NOT complaining. But WOW! Mom called me a butterball in an email today. Thanks mom! I had M take a side view pic last night so we can start comparing. She says my boobs are definitely growing. Great! Just great! I'm on a potato kick right now. Day before yesterday I had fries, chips and augratin potatoes. YUM! And I'm also hooked on ranch dip with chips of course. ;o)

I think that's about it for now. We're just still trying to let all this sink in and looking forward to next Wednesday.

Anyone know of any good twins books I should check out?

A wee bit shocked! (LONG post)

Wow! I'm not even sure where to start. I guess I should first say Thank you GOD! Thank you for these blessings!

Yesterday was quite an amazing day for M and I. One of those days we will NEVER forget. I'll do my best to recap and share with yall. As you can imagine, I have LOTS to say, I'm not sure how to get it from my head and heart to my fingers to share. I'll try.

M and I got to the doctors office just about an hour early! What can I say, we were a tad bit excited? We sat, talking and praying, on the top level of the parking garage for about 30 minutes then made our way down 6 levels on a very slow elevator and into the office we went. I was SO nervous. Well we both where. Equally nervous and excited. We had even joked as we walked in about it being twins. I NEVER thought it really would be. We signed in and go figure, I made my way to the little girls room. :o) We were called back by the same nurse that assisted during our IUI. What a nice lady. Heck everyone there is just so awesome. I wish everyone could go there or someplace equally as nice. We're gonna miss them. Ok, moving on. M went in with the nurse and I was told to empty my bladder, grab a paper sheet(no gowns) and come on in. I joined M in the room and a few minutes later the gang was all there. And when I say gang, I mean gang. In walked the doc doing the ultrasound. Then the nurse. Then the doc who did the IUI. And then another, who I guess was interning or something. We definitely had a room full! We were little bummed that Nice Nurse Wendy wasn't there but where would she stand if she were? The room was full! The doc asked how I was doing. Any cramping? Spotting? Problems? My answer was I'm starving and tired. M of course added that I have to pee every 5 minutes. They all laughed and said that was a good thing. With shaky, sweaty hands I assumed the position, the lights were lowered, M and I grabbed for each others hand and the show began. The magic wand was inserted and right away our flower was on the screen. I, of course started crying. I didn't even know if things were alright yet but just seeing that brought me to tears. The doc did some measuring and then said "There's the heartbeat. Do you see it? Do you see that flicker?" Oh yes we saw it! More tears. This time from M too. :o) I was estatic! I was laughing and crying all at the same time. I think I said out loud, a few "Oh my GODs" and "Thank you LORDs". The doc said the measurements were right on, at 7w5d. M asked about the heart rate and she said that it was just what it should be. Thank you, LORD! The doc then did a little more moving around with the magic wand. I thought I saw something but what do I know? I looked over at M and smiled. I don't really remember the docs exact words at this point but it was something like " And there's another one". HOLY COW! Just when I thought I couldn't cry anymore, the tears flowed even heavier. She moved the wand some more and sure enough, there it was! Our camera shy Flower #2! I did some more "Oh my GODs" and "Thank you LORDs" along with a couple "Holy cows!" The doc did her measurements and said it was a tiny bit smaller at 7w1d but that everything looked good. We even saw that heart beat too! The gang said it had been a while since they saw twins. I thought to myself that it's probably been a REALLY long time since they saw twins made from 2 mommies with no drugs! LOL Dear GOD, we are having TWINS! I can't begin to put into words what I felt. M and I were both crying. Both laughing and I think both ready to pass out! :o) The doc asked how many pics we wanted. I said 2 but really wanted to say a dozen. LOL The lights came back on and the gang said their congrats. I asked if maybe they could all come to the rest of our appts. That got another laugh. Hey, they seemed to be good luck. (Speaking of luck. I, of course had my good luck bag and was wearing my "GROW" t-shirt. ) They left M & I alone for just a minute or so. We hugged. Laughed. Cried. And said, "OMG! TWINS!" like a million times. LOL Then we hear a small knock on the door and then here comes Nice Nurse Wendy busting in with a huge smile and tears. She hugged and kissed us both and said how upset she was that she missed the show but how excited she was for us. YAY for Nice Nurse Wendy. M & I were very glad to see her and be able to share this with her. She's truly a great person! She told us she too had twins. 18 months old. She then stumps us with a question of whether we're having fraternal or identical. We didn't even think to ask that. She looked at the pics and told us it was identical. Holy cow again! We're gonna have 2 boys or 2 girls! Holy cow again! We gotta come up with more names! We talked a good while with her and then I excused myself to the other room. I was still in just my "grow"shirt and paper sheet for heavens sakes. :o) M and Wendy talked. I got dressed and said to my reflection in the mirror "We're having twins! Thank you LORD! Thank you!" We got another round of congrats along with our first congrats card and baby pics and we were out the door on cloud 9! We stepped into the fresh air and I completely lost it again! Go figure huh? We floated down the sidewalk and up the 6 levels of the garage to the truck. We sat there for a while making phone calls. Or should I say TRYING to make phone calls! No one would answer the freaking phone! M's mom...no luck. My mom...no luck. Come on people! We're having twins for Pete's sake and no one will answer so we can share this!? AAHHH!! We ended up calling and telling the few people that knew we were pregnant again. Boy were they excited! We got a "Hot damn", "no way" and I think the best was from a co-worker of mine with her reply of "shut up"! We finally reached our moms about 45 minutes later. M's was still at work. I think she might STILL be in shock. She just kept saying "Are you kidding", "Are you serious"? She congratulated us and I finally reached my mom. Well she called us. This call went on a little bit longer than the others. I guess I failed to mention what exactly we said to everyone when we called didn't I? We said that we just had our ultrasound and that we had good news and bad news. We started with the bad news and that was that we weren't having A baby. I know, I know. That's mean but hey the good news makes it all better! We waited a few seconds in silence and then would say that the good news is that we are having TWO babies!! Ok back to my moms call. Really long phone conversation cut short is that she thought we were lying. When I said twins she asked what do you mean twins?! She kept saying we were lying to her. I heard "Kimberly Sue" so many times that I lost count. I had to swear on the Bible before she would believe me and even then I think she was still doubtful. She said something about us not even using fertility drugs. We reminded her all we did was take vitamins. She then called them super vitamins. That's my mom for ya. LOL She wanted pics as proof! I think it kinda sunk in a little bit and she then started telling me how my grandma and great grandma both had twins as well as my dads side. We finally, kinda convinced her we weren't lying and got off the phone. Oh but before that she asked when were coming home to tell everyone. I told her we still had a few more weeks before we were outta the woods and we wouldn't be home until the first week in December. Mom said she and Dad would just tape their mouths shut until then. :o) We finally made it home (we were in traffic during all those phone calls!) and sorta got our thoughts together. We took pics of the pics, posted them for yall and headed out to dinner. I wanted to ask for a table for 4 but M wouldn't go for it. LOL

So, there you have it! The first of many posts about our flowers.

One more thing. The sweetest thing ever, by the way!

Here's what M said to me on the way home yesterday. She said that our flower came back to us. That s/he didn't want to grow up alone so s/he left and brought a friend with him/her to grow up and share us with.

Is she the greatest or what?!

Remember lucky #11?

Well, let's do the math.

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1 + 1 = 2

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That's right folks!

WE'RE HAVING TWINS!!!

We now introduce you all to Flower #1

And camera shy Flower #2

And here's a shot of our Flowers in the Flower Pot

The doc said they looked good. Heartbeats are right on track (we saw them!!) and they are measuring just right. Flower #1 7w5d and Flower #2 7w1d.

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I'll post more later. We're just trying to let it all sink in for now.

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What a blessing! 2 blessings!

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We're off to dinner. I'm starving! Eating for 3 now ya know!

I'm grazing like a cow

Or at least that was the answer M gave to a friend yesterday when they asked how I was doing.

Thanks M. :o)

But I guess she's right. My stomach growled from the time I got up yesterday til I went to bed last night thus causing me to eat ALL day long. Here's what the cow grazed upon yesterday.

1. OJ
2. Pretzels
3. Raisin Bran
4. More pretzels
5. Pasta with a slice of garlic bread
6. Couple of tootsie rolls
7. Triscuts
8. Applesauce
9. Popcorn
10. Can of soup and crackers
11. Peanut butter and Jelly Sandwich
12. Cheese and Crackers
13. Green beans ( I don't even like green beans!)
14. Pork chop
15. And finally M saved the day with going across the street at 8pm to her moms and stealing a snickers for me. Snickers really do satisfy!

And guess what? I woke up hungry again this morning! It's only 8:15 and I've already had a glass of OJ, an english muffin with peanut butter and a handful of pretzels. It's gonna be another one of those days. But I'm NOT complaining!

What I really wanted all day yesterday was a taco salad but wasn't able to get to one. I'm HAVING that salad today. One way or another!

And oh yeah, by the way. IT'S PICTURE DAY!

Pray!

Our Pregnancy Song :o)

A friend of ours, Tammy, posted this on her blog today for us. I love it!

Thanks Tammy!

Food

I'm eating ALOT of it! And as hard as it is for me to believe....I'm getting tired of it. Tired of eating. How weird. You would think after depriving ones self of good stuff for 32 years, now having the chance to eat would be good. It's not. LOL I eat and then like 2 hours later I'm starving again. By the time dinner time rolls around I'm so tired of eating it makes me sick to think about it.

And I've found that I don't do well with raw chicken. Last night was the easy chicken and stuffing dish. You know, cut up the raw chicken, toss it in the dish, toss in some cream of chicken and top with stuffing. Well, I had to have M cut the chicken up. No problem there. But then I got a whiff of it and almost gagged. NOT fun. Then came the eating part. That didn't happen. I took one bite and that's all she wrote. Who knew one could gag on yummy chicken and stuffing?

So what did I have for dinner you ask? A chalupa and cheesy potatoes from Taco Bell of course! LOL

And just when I thought I was safe at work with no reason to be gagging(no chicken in site here).....I walk down the hall, past the lab and it hits me. Holy yucky smell! I cover my nose and mouth and stick my head in to see where that horrible smell is coming from and what do I find? A BIG block on marijuana! An 18lb block to be exact! Okay, that's a lot of pot and that's a lot of stink!

Lesson learned. Stay away from chicken and pot.

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2 MORE DAYS TIL OUR PHOTO SHOOT!

Well, well, well

I guess we really are pregnant!

Our 3rd beta showed 30,064! Nice Nurse W said we're right were we should be.

Thank you Lord!

And thank you all for thinking about us.

With these results, I'm hoping to be meltdown free for a while.

So what's next? Ultrasound. Just 7 short days away! (See how positive I'm being? te he)

A little advice for those in my shoes

Unless you enjoy pain with needles, don't interrupt the nurses at lunch time for blood work.

Ouch.

Now we wait.

According to my calculations, if the numbers double every 48 hours then mine should hopefully show in the 39,000s tomorrow.

I should have known something was up last time when my 2nd beta was 2169 and the 3rd(a week later) was just 3000 something.

So here's to 39,000!

Please, Lord, Please!

I'm good...

for now but that's only because I just had a melt down so I'm not due for another for a good hour or two.

So here's the deal. I decided to call for a 3rd beta. The receptionist put me on hold FOREVER and when she finally picked up she said she didn't think my insurance would cover it and that she had just talked to Nice Nurse W who said I didn't need one since my numbers did their things so well last time and that our u/s was just a week away and that I needed to reschedule the ultrasound because my doc wouldn't be there next Friday.

Ok well, my insurance covered the 3rd beta last time and my numbers did their thing last time and I saw a heartbeat but that ended in a dead baby and don't they realize next week is FOREVER away and I've already rescheduled the ultrasound once already.

I want a 3rd beta and I'm NOT rescheduling again!

HOLY HORMONES!

I explained the beta was covered last time and that I wanted one. She said they were booked today and that I could come in tomorrow. I don't want to come in tomorrow...I want to come in today! She agreed to fax my records to a lab here in town and I'll be going there when I get off at 3 this evening. I should hopefully have the results tomorrow sometime. I also explained that I've already rescheduled the u/s once already and delaying it any longer would just send me over the edge. She said she would have to check and see if the attending/fellow could do it. Hello! That's what they did the last time! But I have a crappy feeling I'm going to have to reschedule. She said they would call me back about that.

Wow! I'm just one big emotional mess right now. My word!

But onto better things.

Our toilet is fixed along with the leaky faucet in the kitchen. That cost us $300 we really didn't have to spare. But hey! It's fixed.

It rained. We needed it.

It's no longer 91 degrees but instead right now its 62. Ahhh! Fall.

I got my hair cut and I love it.

And we might go camping Saturday night!

Come on beta! Do your thing!!

A bit down

I want to write but I don't know what to say.

M's ok. I'm ok (I think) and the flower is ok ( I pray). I'm just kinda in a scared slump. This time last week I was so excited about our numbers but as the week has gone by I've found myself more and more scared. I still have hardly any symptoms and that makes me worry. I'm tired. My back has, just over the past couple of days, started hurting(Is that good or bad?). My boobs are just the tinyest bit sensitive.

And this time last cycle I had started to spot. I know I shouldn't compare last time to this time but it's all I've got. I find myself reading what happened each day last time. Maybe I shouldn't do that?

I don't mean to be a downer. I'm just really scared. This sucks.

I keep debating back and forth whether or not to call for a 3rd beta. I just don't know. Our ultrasound is 10 days away. That seems like FOREVER away.

I know I can't change anything if something has or is going to happen but this unknown is really getting me.

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It's hot! 91 degrees today!

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Our toilet is broken.

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My heart is breaking for Merr & Sum. *hugs*

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I could burst into tears at any minute.

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I feel like I might puke!

Weekend recap and more **UPDATED**

What a fun weekend!

The State Fair was great! We walked around, checked out the animals and caught a few of the shows and of course WE ATE! Cheese steaks. Corn dogs. Fries. Fried pickles. And a caramel apple for the next day. All yum!

I was pretty tired by the time we hit the road back home. All that walking and standing around really did a number on my back. But I'm all rested up now.

Sunday at Busch was just as fun. Guess what we did? Yep. We ate. But not so much this time. Just dinner in Italy. But again, yum.

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Today was repeat beta day.

Remember how Nurse Wendy told me it should be in the high 500s?

Well, I've been stressing about this all week. I just don't feel pregnant and those sick belly feelings I was having...well they are no more. I just feel tired and have to pee alot. I've really been worrying and pretty scared. This has been/is really hard.

Well....my numbers last Tuesday were 77.

Today they weren't in the high 500s like we were hoping.

They were 2456!!!!!

HOLY COW!! I'm so excited and I'm going to enjoy being excited today because I know tomorrow I will be a little freaked out again. I'm trying! It's just so danged hard!! I want this SO bad that I just can't keep from noticing every lil thing I feel or don't feel. But enough of that.

Our numbers were 2456!! WOOWHOOO!!

Our first ultra sound is scheduled for October 17 at 1030 am!

Oh great! That's 2 weeks away! Another TWW!?!? Come on people! :o)

**UPDATE**
If anyone out there cares....

Our ultrasound had to be rescheduled for 2 days later. It's now on October 19 at 3:30. M's got a class on the 17th that she CAN NOT get out of. That's ok. That just means our flower will be 2 days older and that much more developed. :o)

And yes...I've gone ticker crazy.